Help?? Ada ke orang nak tolong aku? Actually kan all things came from me . Im the one who create the mess so it's gonna be clean by me . No one can help . i just need a friend actually . No more no less . Just a friend . Who know my condition . My sadness . walaupun kita jauh dia tetap try to understand me . But im not lucky enough thoo . Its seem like no one want to being kill because of me . Okay i got it . Its okay friend i understand. Let me say kalau ada sejuta kawan tapi still rasa diri empty . Better tak dak kawan kan? Thats how i feel . Sometimes aku wonder did they really back? Sbb just one little kiddo yang chat gan aku dan yang lain macam tak wujud . I now i really really feel like aku ni tak pernah kawan gan ampa. I really dont know what to say tapi yang pasti aku dissapointed . Really really . Sometimes i feel like i wanna knock my head until i lose my mind . That time let see who is my true friend . Honestly la kan aku fed-up . Penat with this feeling . Do you want to know kenapa aku buat perangai? Nak jawapan jujur? Okaylah fine . Sebab aku nak attention . Yes thats the only thing i want . Sorry sebab membazirkan masa ullos for me . Well if you really tired . Told me . You dont need to act like you care but the truth is!? You dont give a single f*uck pon . So daripada aku lalai dalam penipuan better aku sakit dengan kejujuran . Yes i know truth is hurt ... but its good for me. Maybe aku tak akan terima kebenaran tu buat masa sekarang but i will one day. Did you know my feeling bila aku beria-ria dengan penuh ke'excited'an . And lastly no one ask me 'hey how are you??' ' we really miss you!!' And blablabla . Aku tak harapkan ayat-ayat yang cheesy pon but i hope for some words. Hanya sekadar beberapa patah perkataan dah cukup untuk buat aku rasa dihargai . Yes i know you maybe busy but did you busy all the time? Tak kan sampai no time for me? If i really important in your life . You will try as hard as you can . Right? Or all of you mengharapkan aku yang start dulu ? Me?? Start dulu? Why me? Aku ingat ampa ada banyak cerita nk kongsi kan? Im just afraid you will bored hearing my story sebab nothing special here . Hmmm .. ok lah fine . Im sorry if anyone terasa . But i really can't pendam benda ni lama2 . Its fucking 3 month i keep this thing in my heart and i feel like crazy mad women . I dont have friend so no one gonna hear my problem . Im so sorry im scared to tell you face to face . Im not strong as you see . Im just a kid who need friend to comfort her . I just a crybaby who want a friend to understand her but since im out . Everything change . Im stranger .you stranger . Its cool when we use to be a close friend and suddenly we became stranger . Ist cool? Of course ! because its like fanfiction . Is't this what you want? Live in fanfic world . So here we are !! Fanfic world . Im sad with my life . Okeylah kawan-kawan. Im tired with all of this drama . Thanks :)

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